her stomach

empty on food, full on nerves

bundled their way into

her throat

tingled their way passed the nose to

her eyes

where they fell down her

stone cold cheeks

she looked into the mirror in front of her

full of disappointment

not again

this can’t keep happening to me

feelings come in waves

one day it’s nothing

the nexts it’s everything

freedom

she craved freedom like nothing else

freedom from feeling

freedom from numbness

she wanted something

everything she didn’t have

she wanted happiness